Last post?

Is this the 

Last post of this blog?

Starting a new blog, "I am drawn." 

I don't consider myself in the cancer world anymore. Still going to mammograms,MRI's, ultrasounds, bloodwork, bone scans... and  to the oncologist every six months.   Still taking anastrozole daily to bind up any stray estrogen molecules floating around. 

I don't ache every morning. AH! I don't feel like I have the flu every day. YIPPEE. I don't feel as bloated and fragile as I did. 

Still need to get the port area's nerves cleaned up, they still are firing at random times and full blast. And my knee torn meniscus is slowly healing. 

BUT I am far enough removed that Breast cancer is a distant past. 

So I am moving on.

Now my problems are things like, "What to cook for dinner?", or "Where to go for vacation?", or "Which desk chair to buy?", or even "What to title the new blog?"  LOVE these problems....

Analysis paralysis.
Choose a title. Choose the template. Choose the first sentence, the first photo.
All these choices can paralyze a gal. The blog might not get started.

So I do what I normally do.Tell the voices wanting me to make the perfect choices to just shush. Then I charge ahead.

What an epiphany... the day I realized I didn't have to be perfect. Didn't have to do perfect. Oh, what a relief. Life became a lot more smiles and giggles. And so much more got done!

Mother Teresa's quote takes this a smidge tangentially.
 “We are called to do no great things, only small things with great Love.”

I remember back when I thought I was meant to do great things with my life. Didn't know what, but I was certain God wanted me to cure cancer, figure out how to end homelessness, be the purely compassionate friend to everyone, all the time. What a sigh of relief when I realized God has lots of people on earth to call on to accomplish His plans. To love His people and share His joy. What He really wants from me is to sit at His feet, listen to Him. Be filled with His love. Then and only then am I to get up and do those small things.

Don't be fooled. I don't have this system down perfect yet. But I am trying. And God is patient with us.  That's good news!